I cannot believe how fast you have grown before our eyes. You are utterly exquisite in your words, impulses and little songs which you like to make up for each action. I am so proud of you already and I guess there was such a huge part of me that wanted to share this with everybody.
I recently found myself in a deep reflection of who I am and what you will take from me as you go out into the world to become YOU. The world is a big beautiful scary place France… full of things that will inspire you and equally exhaust you. Fears run through my mind of how I will keep you safe from all of it but at the same time give you agency to be brave and carry things alone.
If you become anything like me, you will feel alot. And that is ok.
While I know I am strong, I also know that it is ok to crumble. While I know that working hard is important, I also now realize how important soul work is. Time to rest and recharge. Play music, dance, draw, cook at home. All the things I do already but with complete and total attention.
As trivial as this might seem; I want you to know that I will not let you have the memory of me telling my phone what I had for breakfast. Because well, who the fuck cares. This life is just too short to be wasting it the way we have on social media and honestly, I am sorry or exposing you to it without giving you the privacy you deserve as a tiny person growing and learning, taking it all in.
As I removed your photographs, there was a sense of huge relief within me. There was a sense of power and protection. While I want the world to see my love for you, I also want to be your shield while I still can.
I want you to remember that while this world is phenomenal in its beauty (which gives you even more impulse to share); it doesn’t need to be enjoyed by anyone else except you. So enjoy it. Take it in, relax, breathe. (I’m pretty sure this has become a letter to myself…) The modern world is so incredibly fast paced;I have become desensitized by the way in which we sit and watch Instagram stories or by the way we curate things to seem perfect when they are not. I have felt an incredible sense of pressure to share and it all left me this weekend. I feel relieved.
I want you to remember my resilience, my passion and resourcefulness.
I want you to remember that I love you.